Change is inevitable
Such a cliche and so often wrong (I bet you can name people who seem to resist change actively and / or do not ever seem to change or adapt or grow? I know I can..) And I wonder, why does change cause us so much stress?
As I write this blog entry, I’m about to move into a new apartment. I’m half in one & half in another.. But it gets better. I also own a house in another town, in which my partner of 7+yrs resides.
Or do I call him my ex? It’s all a bit confusing really. You see I’m breaking up with him.. But he doesn’t know it, nor even suspect it.. We live apart now because I took work out of our town, in order to not go broke.
It’s fair to say that we probably were sub-consciously unhappy, for both of us to accept this as an option. I dunno about you but if the love of my life wanted to up stakes and move towns – I’d probably opt to go with them. Or at the least, I’d pout big time if we had to be apart..
Neither of these things have happened, it’s been a year now .. And to me it seems to be one of those ‘natural progression’ (inevitable .. change .. you see where I’m going with this?) things – where we no longer are a couple but we’ve not ever actually ended things.
But that’s all about to change! I’m setting things up so I am ready to move on.
New digs, new job, new bank account .. new everything really – because all my old stuff is with the ‘ex’ in my old house. This is all being done “on my lawyers advice”- to protect me, as I prepare to move on.. but I must admit somehow it feels incredibly under-handed somehow.
However, I am paying him the big bucks to tell me what to do that protects me because as he noted: I’m a tad emotional and likely to do dumb shit. Charming eh. Prob’ly quite accurate tho lol ..
And so in the book of “ME“, a new chapter is about to commence. Or is it another ‘volume’? 7+ years full of lots of cool stuff do not a chapter make .. ?
Whatever .. I’m about to open myself up to a world of change and some of it will be distressing, unpleasant and downright scary. But some of it will be fun, enjoyable and exciting too!
My thinking is that this blog will allow me to “brain dump” on days when it all seems a bit much. A) It gives me something to do and B) It saves my friends from thinking I am an utter chore and a bore as I navigate my way through the next crazy few months that undoubtably lie ahead.