Sex – Good sex
So I had sex tonight and .. I want to say I liked it. But I didn’t. Is that bad? OK let me back up. I liked it enough to participate, agree.. Did I like it enough to do it again – well, sure – with enough wine maybe lol… but no, I don’t think so.
So this was date #6 with DTR .. drunken text recipient, who has been lovely and with whom I’ve had some lovely experiences of late. But .. it wasn’t “all that” for all he knew what he was doing.
Tonight he took me to a fabulously divine restaurant, no need to impress or even try to – he just probly wanted to go there. And it was very nice .. For once, we came home, to my place. There was coffee .. chatting .. It was good .. casual .. relaxed (whatever) the move to bed was also relaxed and enjoyable.
But .. he left shortly thereafter and although he’s texted a few times since going home .. I’m just not feeling it.
What am I meant to feel?
Am I a monster? Am I one of those women? Do I just fuck men over because I am crazy? I don’t THINK I am and I sure as hell don’t WANT to be that woman .. but could I be?
So yes – before you ask – I have replied this texts this evening, to not do so would be rude. But inside, I am just not getting it .. ?
All that aside, I would like to go on record as saying no. I am not her. That bitch who fucks men over. And omg I don’t ever want to be her!
But MAYBE I am worse .. maybe I am that confused chick that fucks over decent men and leaves them hurt and bewildered so they just turn into cocks and treat the next woman badly?
Mm .. sobering thoughts indeed 😦
Posted on November 30, 2011, in Happy-ness, Hope, Humour, Life, Love, Relationships and tagged Humor, Life, Love, Random, Rants, Relationships. Friendship. Dating. Hope. Optimism. Joy. Peace. Bookmark the permalink. 24 Comments.