From social retard to butterfly
I had a lovely experience today and want to share it with you! I was out shopping and realised that I was standing outside an old workplace, from some time back.. so on a whim I decided to go in and see if I recognised anyone still.
Bad start – the receptionist had changed!
I smiled as I backed away into the lift and headed off to one of the floors I used to work on. Peeking thru the locked glass doors, I spied a friendly face and was promptly dragged onto the floor – hugs and cuddles all round!
Within a matter of minutes, people from other floors had turned up and a full blown party atmosphere had erupted. It was hilarious. There were, of course, a whole heap of people who had no bloody idea who I was. And they were surreptitiously peeking over their cubicle barriers wondering wtf all the noise was about as I chattered and caught up with my old colleagues.
It was only an hour, but it was fantastic!
As I left the building with cries of “come back again soon, we miss you” and promises of catching up over the holiday period ringing in my ears I had to smile – it was hard not to after such a lovely visit.
As I walked along I started thinking about how different I am now, to when I was young a long, long time ago.
You see, I was raised in a traditional, very conservative family. And I was a frightfully well-behaved and quiet child. With an overly strong parental influence applied to my upbringing and young adult years, I was never the life or soul of any party – I was usually found at home studying or spending time with my family.
To be honest, I didn’t care .. I didn’t know any better, I guess. Life was good, for all I was a little unsure how to handle my peers because they had more relaxed upbringings and were into the more normal ‘stuff’ of teens and young adults.
I’ve long since left home, moved towns and jobs a lot and learned that life outside of my originally cloistered world can be kinda fun for all it can also be a bit scary at times 😉
I love to try new things (why just the other day I had a fajita for the first time.. ghastly though it was!) I love to meet new people. Partly due to nature of my work, but also perhaps my personality type, I can rock up to anyone and engage them in conversation.
What I was lacking as a young adult and child was a confidence that people actually wanted me to be around. Well didn’t that sentence just make you all go awww .. lol By that I mean I wasn’t confident “entering” a social setting and didn’t find it easy to mingle or blend in with a group of people.
No more though!
Whilst I do actually enjoy being alone, I also love being amidst a crowd of people. Preferably ones I like tho! Put me in a crowded mall and I have to fight the urge to punch people. But if it’s a party setting or bar with friends, colleagues and / or family (if they have to be there!) I’m happier than a pig in muck.
Isn’t it curious how we can change throughout our lives? If someone had asked me 30 years ago if I thought I’d ever be begged to attend social gatherings, or have a large and fabulous social life I’d have stammered, blushed and just shaken my head. Inconceivable.
I have no idea quite where I’m going with this so perhaps I’ll hit post and well, actually I’m heading to my new favourite bar with some friends lol
Posted on December 21, 2011, in Happy-ness, Humour, Life and tagged Christmas, Dating, Divorce, Humor, Life, Love, On-line Dating, personal, Random, Relationships. Friendship. Dating. Hope. Optimism. Relationships. Bookmark the permalink. 21 Comments.