When men go AWOL
This is a hard post to write because my head is a total mess, which may end up reflected in this entry .. Maybe I’ll keep it short and simple (just like me!) You see, Mr New has done a runner.
There, that was simple huh 😦
It started emotionally, a week or so ago .. Then he went awol physically .. Oh and electronically too .. I do not know why because he’s not taking my calls or replying to texts.
So yeah, you know how I have suggested I already may have had abandonment issues? Call it a hunch, but I suspect this MAY NOT HELP my cause!
And so here I sit an absolute emotional cripple, barely functioning as I try to grapple with what the fuck has gone wrong, once more .. And I have honestly no idea, nothing triggered it that I am aware of. It just happened..
I think that is always the hardest part for me in this situation – not knowing what went wrong.. Cos it eats me up as I revisit the last conversation and go “where did I cock it up?”
So yeah this is why I’ve been a bit quiet lately cos I just haven’t had it in me to construct anything other than $!%$@%^!&*(!*(# which is about all that’s in my head.
And now if you will excuse me, I am going to go get drunk.
Posted on March 21, 2012, in Life, Relationships and tagged Blogging, Books, Dating, Hope, Humor, Inspiration, Life, Lifestyle, Love, Love Language, Musings, personal, Random, Rants, Relationships. Friendship, Self Help, Trust. Bookmark the permalink. 59 Comments.