How shit do I feel, right about now?
“Were you ever what you said?” Ouch..!
Life sure does have a ‘funny’ way of messing with us at times, doesn’t it!
So I made a fairly big deal of taking my engagement ring off on Friday and was actually at peace with the space I was moving into.. Having enjoyed some ‘me’ time, very much regrouping – both mentally and emotionally, over the past few weeks.
I was lucky in many ways, in that my break up was uncomplicated. It was my decision to end the relationship but not an easy one, for all I carried it out like it was. In my experience it pays to turn emotions off during a break up, saves a bunch of drama and regrets after the fact.
As well, both my ex and I are very much opposed to dramas so for all he was devastated when I told him, there was a few days of awkward emails exchanged and then we set to sorting out the untangling of almost 8yrs together.
Stiff upper lip and all that – we’re both of British descent lol
Even the splitting of our assets was done amicably. For example: I had something he’d been given as a 21st gift by a close family member and I shipped it back to him. He had a few things of mine and did the same. It was “nice”, in as much as this sort of thing can be.
Like I said, we’re both anti-drama.
Lazy, perhaps? 😉
I’ve heard from him a couple of times in recent weeks, a happy christmas wish and an update about some mutual friends of ours he’d seen at New Years. But for some reason today I woke up to an email from him.
And in it he’d embedded the song I’ve put in this post up top and then finished his email with this one:
As I’m moving into a very clear head space, looking forward and thinking about my future it seems he’s doing some soul searching too. Now to work out how the hell to reply, because he asked a bunch of questions that I would like to reply to..
I have to confess, I cried as I listened to the lyrics of both songs. Poor man .. I hate to think that I made him feel this way.
Now, could someone please pass me some tequila? This is not champagne drinking music 😦
Posted on January 15, 2012, in Change, Grief, Humour, Life, Love, Relationships, Stress and tagged Blogging, Blogs, Dating, Divorce, Drinking, Heartbreak, Hope, Humor, Life, Lifestyle, Love, Marriage, Music, Optimism, personal, Random, Rants, Relationships. Friendship. Bookmark the permalink. 27 Comments.